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I can't believe that I am just one day away, am I really ready? This is my first time and I hope I can survive. I'm a bit scared and excited at the same time. I am in awe that I am getting near to exercise my ALL-BY-MYSELF-SKILLS.
Before I started my college life, it's my dream to live in a city alone to fulfill my "I want to do it but I can't" stuff. By the way, the stuff that I mentioned are the things I want to do but I can't because my parents said NO. When I was in my Senior HS, I did my very best and push through my dream to study in any university outside the province, I did everything to take entrance examinations. Hence, one day during my lunch break, my parents asked a permission from the HS Principal office to excuse me for a while and I don't have any idea why. I was surprised and they said, they need my 2 x 2 photos and still, I don't have any idea what is going on. Until my mom broke the surprised and told me that I am going to take an entrance examination in a nearby university. I feel a bit betrayed because they didn't mentioned or talk about this with me before they got the application but I have no choice but to accept the fact that my parents doesn't want me to go far away. So instead of feeling more betrayed, I tried to appreciate my parents' effort, since they're the ones who's working on my papers which is quite embarrassing because I should be the one who's working on it.
For assurance that I will enter college, my mom took applications from other schools. (the universities that I want to enter so bad) So, I did take the examination from the university they choose, although it is against my will. I didn't took the exam seriously and I finished it earlier than expected. Before the results came, I am still hoping to take the examination from other universities but unfortunately I passed and my parents stopped me to take other.
On the first day of college, I felt so jealous of my former HS classmates & friends because they're all studying and living outside the province. Every time we hang out I heard a lot of good and not so good stories about their lives outside their homes. Through the years of listening to their experiences, I realized that I am lucky to stayed in the province for four years. Based from their stories, living outside home was FUN because you can do whatever and go wherever you want, freedom is all yours and going home late is NOT a NO. Nevertheless, the opposite of it is.. LONELY, why? well, as I can remember, there is this one time my friend told me that when the typhoon came, he can't get out of his dormitory because of the flood outside. And since he can't get out of his room, the worse news about his experience is that, he forgot to stock enough food to fulfill his stomach needs. I tried to imagine myself in his situation and I thought, maybe I'll just cry at the corner. (LOL) Another not so good story from the source, there are times that you need to thrift yourself to survive for a week (well there are some where their allowance was only enough for a week but they got some fun plans.. so...) and if you don't know how to cook like your mom, then you'll die young (jk) but seriously, you will missed the 3/4 of your four years without your mom's special dishes and you're the suki of fast foods near your home.
In conclusion to the past, through the four years, there are reasons why God's plan is better than mine. A lot of things happened in my years in the university and I will never regret all of those moments that once I dreamed to happened in other places. Since I realized all those things, my initial plan after graduation is to continue my study in the nearby university.
I can't believe that I am just one day away, am I really ready? This is my first time and I hope I can survive. I'm a bit scared and excited at the same time. I am in awe that I am getting near to exercise my ALL-BY-MYSELF-SKILLS.
Before I started my college life, it's my dream to live in a city alone to fulfill my "I want to do it but I can't" stuff. By the way, the stuff that I mentioned are the things I want to do but I can't because my parents said NO. When I was in my Senior HS, I did my very best and push through my dream to study in any university outside the province, I did everything to take entrance examinations. Hence, one day during my lunch break, my parents asked a permission from the HS Principal office to excuse me for a while and I don't have any idea why. I was surprised and they said, they need my 2 x 2 photos and still, I don't have any idea what is going on. Until my mom broke the surprised and told me that I am going to take an entrance examination in a nearby university. I feel a bit betrayed because they didn't mentioned or talk about this with me before they got the application but I have no choice but to accept the fact that my parents doesn't want me to go far away. So instead of feeling more betrayed, I tried to appreciate my parents' effort, since they're the ones who's working on my papers which is quite embarrassing because I should be the one who's working on it.
For assurance that I will enter college, my mom took applications from other schools. (the universities that I want to enter so bad) So, I did take the examination from the university they choose, although it is against my will. I didn't took the exam seriously and I finished it earlier than expected. Before the results came, I am still hoping to take the examination from other universities but unfortunately I passed and my parents stopped me to take other.
On the first day of college, I felt so jealous of my former HS classmates & friends because they're all studying and living outside the province. Every time we hang out I heard a lot of good and not so good stories about their lives outside their homes. Through the years of listening to their experiences, I realized that I am lucky to stayed in the province for four years. Based from their stories, living outside home was FUN because you can do whatever and go wherever you want, freedom is all yours and going home late is NOT a NO. Nevertheless, the opposite of it is.. LONELY, why? well, as I can remember, there is this one time my friend told me that when the typhoon came, he can't get out of his dormitory because of the flood outside. And since he can't get out of his room, the worse news about his experience is that, he forgot to stock enough food to fulfill his stomach needs. I tried to imagine myself in his situation and I thought, maybe I'll just cry at the corner. (LOL) Another not so good story from the source, there are times that you need to thrift yourself to survive for a week (well there are some where their allowance was only enough for a week but they got some fun plans.. so...) and if you don't know how to cook like your mom, then you'll die young (jk) but seriously, you will missed the 3/4 of your four years without your mom's special dishes and you're the suki of fast foods near your home.
In conclusion to the past, through the four years, there are reasons why God's plan is better than mine. A lot of things happened in my years in the university and I will never regret all of those moments that once I dreamed to happened in other places. Since I realized all those things, my initial plan after graduation is to continue my study in the nearby university.
And now, after the prologue, God revised my initial plan. Yes! This is it! One day left and I GUESS, I am ready to enter my FIRST DAY in my FIRST JOB and FIRST TIME to live outside the home. YES! my prayers were fulfilled and also, I am excited for my FIRST DAY in Law School although I am enormously nervous.
This day, I am starting to pack my home (lol jk) what I mean is that I am preparing for my life outside my home and I need more motivation and inspiration to full my guts because to be honest, I am seriously scared and mentally not ready to be alone and being not in my room for three days (that's maximum). Well, at the same time, I can't wait to experience and to exercise my ALL-BY-MYSELF-SKILL and also, curious & looking forward for what will happen min my life after a week, a month, a year, and after I graduate.
Maybe being INDEPENDENT will be one of the best decision I ever made. Disposing my physical, financial and mental dependency with my parents will be a struggle but it will be a great experience and I know, it'll be an amazing journey that I must walk into. One thing that I need to be thankful for, is how God's plan will challenge my patience and faith. There are maybe times that some part of His plans are difficult and depressing but at the end of the day, it'll make me STRONGER and it is the BEST-EST part for my life.
Our faith in Him from head to heart to toe is the reason why we're still standing in this up and down journey. He never let me down, I will never let Him go out of my life.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
This day, I am starting to pack my home (lol jk) what I mean is that I am preparing for my life outside my home and I need more motivation and inspiration to full my guts because to be honest, I am seriously scared and mentally not ready to be alone and being not in my room for three days (that's maximum). Well, at the same time, I can't wait to experience and to exercise my ALL-BY-MYSELF-SKILL and also, curious & looking forward for what will happen min my life after a week, a month, a year, and after I graduate.
Maybe being INDEPENDENT will be one of the best decision I ever made. Disposing my physical, financial and mental dependency with my parents will be a struggle but it will be a great experience and I know, it'll be an amazing journey that I must walk into. One thing that I need to be thankful for, is how God's plan will challenge my patience and faith. There are maybe times that some part of His plans are difficult and depressing but at the end of the day, it'll make me STRONGER and it is the BEST-EST part for my life.
Our faith in Him from head to heart to toe is the reason why we're still standing in this up and down journey. He never let me down, I will never let Him go out of my life.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
Thank You, Lord.
