Please let me rest.
Everything is foggy.
I cannot see anything, neither the future nor tomorrow.
All I can imagine are more failures, more disappointments and a huge burden, which is ME.
All I want is a deep rest... without opening my eyes.
Please let me have it. I'm begging from the heaven.
Overwhelmed.
They view my life as a fruit of passion and full of heart.
My work seems to be the best opportunity.
My academic life leave with an impression and dignity.
My significant other seems to be the one.
My overall presence means jolly and enthusiastic
But I see the opposite of their views.
All I see is a misconception. Perfect things that are given to the wrong person.
Apology for every wrong and unmindful negative thoughts;
For the strong guts that tells me something is wrong;
For unintentional mistakes and attitude;
My needy personality and annoying presence;
For being clingy, bossy, and for being me.
Yes, I know, I am indeed the worst.
But please let me know the truth. Tell me.
Clear my mind with the fact that this thing did not happened and will never happen
Assure me things are in good places and show me where it is placed.
I want the fact, the opposite of my thoughts.
Although none seems to be interested and others are too tired to explain.
It's fine because no one is obliged to do so.
Countless apologies are not enough to offset the existence of worthless self;
I will never stop apologizing for all my stupid decisions;
Gratitude for the patience, for being the best you, and for reminding me of positive;
for my stupid mistakes;
for my toxic attitude; and
for entering in your my life.
Indeed, I need a rest. Help me. Give me.
I deserve the long peaceful sleep.
I deserve to close my eyes...
to end my unspecified pain; and
to less your burden.
Please let me, I pray.
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