One punch reality

One punch reality

   August 31, 2016       FJ

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Ore Monogatari (episode 22) - Yukikata-chan.

I sobbed after you said, you were smiling after you heard what I said.

"I'm glad.", I respond over the phone. 

"Very glad.", as my tears gushed on my cheeks.

You were right when you accused of me of feeling mad and disappointed.

However, I expressly pleaded not guilty. 

Without a doubt, I feel rejected and I do not like the feeling. Not at all.

I cannot point the blame to you because it was not your fault. 

It was no one's. It was the feels'.

Here, another reality punched straight to the chest.

Despite the negative expectations, there was a little light of hope that the feelings is reciprocal. 

That little thing hurts more. 

I've been too vulnerable and too expressive. 

Both directed me to fear which I should have followed.

"At least, you do not need to think of it every night", you comfort.

"You do not really understand", I thought.

I am broken but I am grateful. It hurts and I apologize.

I admit, I hate the way you made me feel but I love you for being you.

I am not bidding a farewell but I will leave the rest to you.


If the person you like does not dislike you, it does not mean he likes you, maybe he's just being kind.

I agree.