Unanswered Thoughts

Tuesday, September 26

Unanswered Thoughts


I tried harder, I pushed myself, but I should’ve not.
I was assured that everything was fine, that he was fine, but none of it was.
I’ve held on to those promises and to those words he left, but none was in his memory.
I’ve been devoted to our future but he was still embracing his yesterday.

Am I that stupid? Or you were a fraud?
I know what you have been through but why I cannot consider.
With all the knowledge of the situation but continued to invest, I was in bad faith.
I rescinded but still my loss.

Why did I fight, if you cannot? Why did you try, if you were not sure?
Why did you say love me and be still the same?
Why am I waiting for something I was not assured?

I challenged all my words, my thoughts and my emotions.
What have I done to you?
Why do I feel the regret of my own rescission? Why should I?
Why did I become a prisoner of your promises? Why should I be?
Why did I love too much, which I should have not.

What have I done to you to make me feel this way?
Why am I still here?

Is it really worth the wait... or am I waiting for nothing?
If you were still embracing your past, so do I, you are my yesterday.